Me in U

Days before, I have a short chat with one of my friend. 

I said, one of the reason I can't 100% let go of my previous relationship

besides I still like him……

is because I assumed that he still loves me and

I do not wish to hurt him.

She told me, do not overestimate the importance of my present in his life

Maybe without me, he will still live happily after some time.

But, if I keep thinking like this, I will suffer for an endless period.

These days, her words keep spinning in my head

Perhaps, she is right……

Maybe these years, 

I have overestimated my importance, my presence...

If I'm really so important for him,

Perhaps he will hold me tighter

and will not simply let me go……

Thank you, for letting me realized something

that never overestimate our value in one's life

If you are that very important to them, 

they will show it by treasure you more =)

谎言

从小，就不喜欢被骗

更不能接受，自己在乎的人骗自己

可是，有些人，应该是生活状况

为了，自我保护，

为了，增加安全感，

让欺骗，变成习惯…

认为欺骗，可以是褒是贬

可以是自卫的武器

可以是美丽的谎言

可以是增加自己的信心

当一个人相信自己的谎言时

可以是胜利的象征

可以改变很多很多……

可是，你知道吗

当自己知道自己在乎的人

这样，一而再再而三的骗自己

是很伤的吗？！

骗人，骗多了

终会被拆穿

到时，会让很多人对你失去信心

也会，让曾经很相信你的人失望

你骗到的，也不是非常信任你的人吗？？！
不信任你的人，根本不会信你，也根本不在乎你说什么~
连信任自己的人都骗……

总有一天，他们也不会再信任你了……

If u always lie to me, 

At first, I will feel very disappointed..

then try to accept 'YOU' as a lier...

Slowly I will make myself LIE TO U too

coz people that likes to LIE

will never appreciate the value of 'TRUTH'....

Silent doesn't mean, I believe U...

just I don't want to hear MORE LIEs from u

 in afford to cover my suspicions...

残缺 vs 完美 @ imperfect vs perfect

Today...again...after almost one year been working in Benthany Home..I manage to plan one activity with special kids... From, brain storming of idea to planning to applications, from drafting to implementing, with the help of my chosen members...Finally, we make it into reality =)

Although it is just half day program, but it is a good start for me in organizing after joining as volunteer in Bethany Handicap Camp passed a year ago, which last for three days. 

We make it in . . . . . .

yea, that's me, capturing the sign board =='''

With my neighbors as participant showing 'peace' to me =P

Each of the participant will guide one special kid/ teenager and be with them all along the activities or games, from 9am until 5pm (as planned)

Yeah~ infront the main entrance of the biulding~ the building is damn new! and nice... suitable for such activities =)

Red Colored T-shirt EXCO & AJK  preparing the setting and games~

These are the activities that we played with them ~ they seemed enjoy & happy =)

Chicken Dance

After that, we stopped for a while for breakfast-making session... Me, as one of the 'free' committee members (since i'm perancang, pemantau...), will prepare the breakfast - sandwich while other kids are preparing it~ 

One of the finished group =)

Yumyum...eating after praparing~ 

This is my group one !! haha... im doing decoration & presentation of it =P

Then, we continued our games =D

This is my committee members~ all REDs =)

Since i'm free, i did the 跑腿 work also... buy souvenirs for the homes with my members...and pack it..

Ta~ ta~ ta~ tran~ ~ ~ all hand made (except the fruit basket la) ...nice?? =P

Having a small chat with some kids, during my lunch time... they are funny and cute... sometimes i think, they are leading life happily.. They are not like us, much to worry, much to pressure about... I asked them..are you happy with daily school life in the Home, they answered 'Yes' without doubt... they said they like it so much..can have a lot of fun... 

Yes, they are imperfect...but, they are happy..they are innocent.. they appreciate you if you treat them well... they easily satisfied with what they have... they never ask for more and more and more, like most of US!!!

So human, do not pity them, but, we should pity ourselves, that always dissatisfied with our life, always think that we are not lucky, always crave for somethings that we do not have but our friends have it.....At least, they never think so..NEVER.....they are, Happy.... =)

Taking photo after lunch time~ while waiting for Malays to pray =) Well, they are almost same age as me..20, 21, and the pinky one, 30... =)

 We ended it with a photography session wit all members if the program =)

Yes, i learned a lots... and again, remind myself that, 

we are far more perfect than them... What else we are asking for?